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Sammy pours me a cup of hot tea and soaks my feet in warm water. She has spiky black hair and is wearing a black T-Shirt with baggy blue jeans. She laughs as we chat in Arabic about our families and bond over our common nickname, and I grasp that she is sweet but quiet. Her meticulous, intimate, and lengthy manicure is nothing like the quick 30 minute shape and lacquer job you receive in an American salon. Sammy's sister Fatima bursts through the doorway to the salon like a gale force wind chattering away about how her daughter stole her keys making her late. Fatima is delighted to have a customer and impressed that I know some Arabic. She starts speaking to me slowly in Modern Standard Arabic, and I try to tell her that I understand her dialect. Fatima loses interest and prances away in her heels when a new customer enters. "Why does your sister wear a veil, but you don't?”" I ask Sammy. Sammy looks down and mutters, “"My sister is married. I have no desire to marry.”" "No man is right for you?”" I ask playfully. "No,"” she says sternly, "No man at all. I know it'’s not typical behavior for women in Jordan, and my mother and sister do not approve, but I am happier this way.”" I gather that she is talking about her sexuality, and I realize she's the first openly homosexual Jordanian I'd met. I am surprised, and at a loss for words. I don'’t know how to react and express my empathy for someone who on a daily basis deals with disapproval and rejection of a character trait beyond her control. I manage to blurt out, "I'm sorry. And thank you. You'’re doing a great job. The color is lovely.”" She smiles and asks, “How's your tea?"

"Would you like another scoop of sugar?"” Oum Ahmad asks me. I politely decline, and she takes a seat on the cushion next to my female friend and me. While the men sit and talk outside about the hard economic times in their small farming village, my friend and I are invited inside the house to meet our host's wife, Oum Ahmad, and daughter, Sarah. I love being a foreign woman in a Muslim country. It affords me with the unique position to talk with men, but also to be invited into the concealed world of women. We laugh about the TV show Tom & Jerry and ask her daughter about classes and her interests. Oum Ahmad tells us her daughter is very smart, and she knows because she was her daughter's primary school teacher for her first three years of education. Oum Ahmad is the sole teacher at the village's school for girls for the first three years of their primary schooling. She laments that she doesn'’t have enough desks and books for all the girls, and that hardly any of them attend university from this village because they marry quickly after high school. She wishes she could do more for them. I wish that I could do more for her. I ask Sarah about her plans after high school. She says she'’d like to study mathematics at Jordan University, which brings a smile to my face. She asks, "Would you like another cup of tea?”"

"I swear I can't have another!”" I tell Souad. Souad lives just a 10 minute walk from Oum Ahmad and is much younger. She invites my whole group— (male and female—) into her home, serves us tea, and the party guests start piling in. All of the woman are veiled and dressed in very conservative clothing. Both men and women and all ages from toddler to elderly are represented. After 10 minutes, the whole room is filled with family members and neighbors listening to our exchange about her recent engagement. Souad, a 30 year old woman from the village, had accepted a marriage proposal and was about to wed the next weekend, and everyone was teeming with excitement. We talk to her about engagements in America, and she tells us about her engagement period, which began about a year earlier when her betrothed asked her and her family for permission to marry her. After the decision had been made, Souad, her fiancé, and her family met on several occasions to get to know one another, and confirmed the engagement. She explains the henna decorating celebration where all of her female family members and friends gather the night before the wedding and decorate her arms. When she spoke, she appeared honored and positively thrilled. Her smile is infectious, and though I am uncomfortably full from tea from Oum Ahmad's house, I am blissful, too, and I relent, accepting her offer for tea and proceed to gulp down the last remaining drops of tea in my glass happily.

The five young girls giggle and bring around the teapot filling a paper cup with tea for each of us, which is such a welcome treat on this brisk fall evening. My class and I had been invited to dine with this family at their home in a village close to the Syrian border and in the far western part of Jordan. I begin talking to the girls, and I bond with them instantly over Twilight and Oprah and about our home lives. The girls seem to take to my friend Leslie and me effortlessly and invite us as well as our female professor Sandy to a second house away from our male cohorts. We finish our tea and are dragged down a jagged pathway where three older women are sitting. Two are middle-aged—, one is especially pretty, —and the third lady is older and clearly the matriarch of this family. She is called Oum Khaled. More young women zoom outward from the house behind her, and she reminds me of the large-skirted Anna from “The King and I,” as children seem to burst out from her clothes. Oum Khaled sits quietly and listens to us talk about our language education and gazes on proudly when her granddaughters and nieces present us with gifts. I am rendered speechless by their generosity and their thoughtfulness. I feel like part of this family. We are about to leave when Oum Khaled starts to speak. "You remind me of girls I knew when I was young. When I lived in Palestine. I left after 1948. I've lived here ever since. I can see the hills of my old village from my garden, but I've never been able to go back.” “Inshallah, you will return” echos from everyone's lips in the group." It's a dream she had instilled in her children, and her children in theirs. It'’s the tie that binds them. Our professor calls, and it'’s time for us to leave. I exchange e-mail addresses with my new friends, and we kiss goodbye. I approach Oum Khaled. I kiss her and I tell her it'’s been my favorite evening in Jordan since my arrival. I tell her she has a beautiful family, and I thank her for her hospitality. "“Come any time."” She kisses my cheek again. "“We'll have tea."”